Life as of lately 11.12.17

So I have been a little M.I.A. lately on working on content. I have so many ideas that I want to share, but the time to do this is no joke. I commend people who have this as a real job and take the time to give us wonderful creative content (my dream tbh lol). Anyways, I wanted to share my life as of lately because it's a start to get back into working on this whole idea of mine. First off I can't believe 2017 is almost over!! Where does time go you guys?! It's been a crazy year for me lots of CHANGE and that's what I want to talk about in this post. If there is one thing we should all learn by now is that the only thing constant in life is change. If you haven't come to terms with it, just a lesson learned from personal experience it'll make your life easier by just learning to go with each change that comes your way. I'll be the first to admit change scares me! Sometimes life shifts so much and you feel a little unsteady BUT you always get back on track and things always work out the way they should. I am a strong believer that all that happens in our lives is for a good reason and trying my best to always see the up side to things lately. 

I told myself that when I started this blog it was going to be my way to creatively express my life and hope that if anyone learns anything in my own growing up process that helps them i'd be so happy with just that. I love to write and I think it's where I express myself best! Sometimes my words in real life just don't come out right, and to be totally honest I have no idea what I am doing with this blog yet. I just know that it popped up in my head that I needed to do it and see what happens, so I started it. That's something right? :p

Anyways, I do know that 2017 was a year I discovered my true self. Which might sound silly, but in being open and honest while I start this blogging journey I went through a tough time in my relationship this year and I am now no longer in it. It was not easy as most break-up's aren't, but it has taught me that sometimes in life the picture you had in your head just isn't the truth of what will happen for you and that's totally okay. In all of this I only wish the best for both our lives moving forward. I have had a lot of time to just be with myself and truly dive deep to what I want in my life going into this next chapter. It's weird to figure yourself out again, like I know who I am, but there's always this small part where you're like okay I didn't see that before. We change as people with each relationship and I sure as heck know the way I am now has evolved. 

As the title says my life within the last few months was full of weddings! So much fun BUT in my I also very much needed my alone time and was very self focused. With that, I am learning to love myself as a whole again, I am learning to speak my true voice and not be afraid of what others think, I became a Pure Barre teacher! Something I wanted for a long time (post on that later). I am connecting with my spirituality, a part of me I lost for a long time. It was a huge part of who I am when I was younger and growing up and i'll speak to more on that later too! I am learning to just live my life one day at a time, go with the flow, and shift my mindset to focus on the beautiful things I have in my life (something I was not so good at some days). I am just honestly working on being the best version of myself for myself right now. I am far from a selfish person, but I am being selfish with my love and self care lately. I think it's what I needed in this year of my life. I am also learning that it's so okay to do that. For a better portion of my post grad life I have just given so much energy to everything in my life. I just live very go go go all the time and in the last 6 months or so I have learned to slow down (also something I am not so good at), and realize that taking a step back from everything is a good thing. I can feel I am a much happier human being doing that. Working on it all. I am so incredibly thankful that the people in my life have allowed me to heal and do as I need in everything recently. I have felt supported and so loved and not alone even when I wanted alone time. I always knew I could text or call someone if I needed. This year was the year of love for me in an ironic way lol, but I celebrated so many milestones with some of the most important people in my life. More on all this later though!

I want to end on this note, don't be afraid to discover who you are guys. I know it sounds funny to say that, but if there's one thing I am learning recently it's that taking time to have a true conversation with yourself and what you want and need for your own well being is so much more than the surface things we do for ourselves. It's finding your inner voice that helps guide you day to day in both big and small ways. The voice that says hey maybe this isn't what you want so don't do it! Basic life principals I know, but we humans have a tendency to do what's expected or "the norm" not what always feels right. Before I go on a random tangent though I will end it there. What you can expect to see on the blog the remainder of this year is a friendship post (because i'm strangely obsessed with my friends lol), my pure barre training experience and what it feels like to FINALLY be a teacher, health and wellness post, update on my skincare routine, my spiritual journey recently, what my days look like and how I survive in my busy life and what might help you in yours, some outfit inspo i've been digging, wedding recaps, loving lately on products and my new year goals! I can't wait to really dig into this blog and share with you all! 

Let me know if there's anything you'd like to see :) 

Thanks for reading! 
Xo,
Shay