It's both an ugly and beautiful time on our planet right now

I would love to say that the virus hasn’t taken over my daily conversation but sadly it has. I have had an array of emotions on it. When I talk to people who are fearful I feel that fear. When I talk to people who aren’t concerned I too don’t feel concerned. When I talk to people who are on the “extreme” end I feel conflicted because it’s not how I choose to live my life, but I feel for them. For some people it’s very real. It’s effecting their life in a very painful way. I believe we are all entitled to whatever you want to feel. It’s a weird time. Everyone is feeling everyone and the vast array of the human experience is happening in a very BIG way right now whether we realize it or not.

If there’s one thing this virus has shown me it’s that our world is broken and needs healing. It has shown me how we have stayed blind to some very real living conditions. It has shown me how we’ve taken our health for granted. It’s shown me how it took something as awful as this to make people all of a sudden think being healthy and mindful of others is a priority/take care of the planet/not be wasteful etc. It’s shown me how our healthcare system needs help and needs to change. It’s shown me how our media is powerful. How quick and easy it is to spread panic and fear instead of love and light. Since day 1 the only thing we have been shown is death and outbreaks. Seeing people turn against one another. Seeing people hoard and become selfish. I get it. We are in a very intense time, but it’s not an excuse to behave this way. Maybe you feel scared. Maybe you feel hopeless. Maybe you feel like a victim. Maybe you feel invincible. Maybe you feel angry. It’s all allowed. Things are being cancelled. Events are being postponed. Our life is “on hold” until “it ends”. I personally don’t like that answer. I will honor the protocols. I will continue to be a healthy AF human. I will be mindful. I will social distance, follow all the things. I am not an expert. I am not in the thick of what’s happening across seas, but I do strongly believe in the power of the heart and mind. I believe this is a chance to show up for each other. Energy is powerful.

Things are ugly right now I won’t deny that BUT damn the light being shed on what’s real for us as a global society is so much bigger than this virus. I mean it should have always been, but it took this to earthquake every single one of us to look at our world differently and our lives. It’s showing how many of us need community and love more than ever. It’s showing us how quick we are to blame others and not take responsibility for our own actions. It’s showing us how selfish people can be. It’s not about what’s the current reality, it’s about where can we go from here? If your answer is “no where we die. This is it.” Well guess what can very much show up for you. You attract what you put out. With your fear based living and panic you will attract more of that. Also know that you compromise your immune system with stress. Stay rooted in the beauty that is your world despite the chaos. Practice self-care of the mind and body right now. Don’t focus on the worry. I read somewhere that worrying is like praying for what you don’t want #truthbomb, no thanks.

I know people will say I am in a spot where i’m “lucky” because i’m young and healthy. Well let me shed some light. Yes I am young and healthy. I first heard about this and was like this is ridiculous. Then I got a slap in the face that it’s very real, but I am still choosing not to worry…. it’s not out of ignorance either. It’s just not my belief to do so. I want to show up differently and intuitively I just know it’s going to be okay. My family thank the lord is safe and healthy, but you know what… I have a mom who has a brain bleed and is losing her memory slowly. Everyday it’s making sure she too is taking care of herself, because the truth is her bleed is a ticking time bomb and her health has been at risk for as long as I can remember at this point in my life. She has good days. She has bad day. I don’t focus on it because It’s a miracle actually how much life she lives and I am grateful for that. She chooses to see what she has been given and lives a full life so I celebrate that and it makes me proud of her. I have an aunt who has mental health issues. To be honest lately we worry that sometimes her will to live isn’t there almost daily lately. This is more real for me than a virus, it’s painful but I choose not to worry about it. Instead I choose to believe all the time she will fight it and i’m grateful she’s here with us even if she’s battling and knowing she chooses to live. I also put it out there that she will heal and I believe it with every fiber of my being. I have another aunt who’s immune system is suppressed from cancer so the time right now is imperative she’s careful. But you know what… she also chooses to live not in fear but in gratitude. I have learned my greatest strengths from my family. So I choose every damn day to look at what is the better choice. It’s not easy. Sometimes I have moments of pain and cry and all. So if you think I am being ignorant by saying I am not worried. Know that I am not being ignorant. I don’t need to explain myself but I do feel called to shed light on what’s real for me in saying this… so in choosing not to worry myself over this and live my life in the most normal way possible right now is my truth (with mindfulness of course). I believe we have a choice in every situation so I am choosing to be grateful for what I have been given and do what I can. I am grateful everyday for the life I live. In this time… my heart and soul know we are safe. I can’t explain it, but I do feel this very intensely. I truly believe this is a beautiful opportunity to expand even though it doesn’t make sense. We face death and illness everyday. This is no time to beckon to it. We are stronger than this virus so let’s not let fear of the unknown win.

It hurts me to see what’s happening. It hurts me to know death has ensued. It hurts me to know that people have to choose who lives and doesn’t. It hurts me to see that people can’t see the bigger picture. I mean you can hide, worry, be fearful, blame and lock yourself in your house, or you can choose to live and be a light. No that does not mean don’t social distance, don’t quarantine, don’t be mindful etc. It means you choose to see the good no matter how ugly it gets. It means you choose to see that if we band together as a community our energy and mindset around this are so much more powerful than a virus. Will it solve things overnight… no. A lot may still be questioned and left up in the air. A lot of sad shit will probably still happen BUT a lot of good can also happen. It’s not one or the other. We live in a world of duality. Meaning we get both sides of a coin. It’s just how it works. It’s what makes the good feel so damn good and because we know how bad the bad hurt. We need both to experience life and experience is our greatest teacher. So what can this teach us right now? How do we be the change?

Call me crazy. Call me “woo-woo” I don’t give a damn. What I care about is empowering you and everyone else on this planet to BE THE LIGHT and BE THE DAMN CHANGE we need right now. Be the one who even if you are at home are sending love and healing energy to the collective. Spreading positivity instead of more worry. Being respectful of the spectrum of emotions out there right now. Living life instead of being upset over how much is on hold right now or cancelled. You get to live. You get to kiss a loved one hello. You get to fucking be here. See the bigger picture. Make sure you are protecting your energy, but also sending your strength out into the world. You are choosing to believe (even in fear) that it will be okay. You are choosing to believe that healing and answers will be here soon. You are choosing to believe that this will be over soon and leave us stronger and more informed than ever. We get to be the change in the world you guys. So send love to the people who are in the healthcare system, give thanks to lives that are still on this planet with us, give thanks to the people tirelessly trying to figure out, give thanks to the people still in stores so we can eat and have sense of safety in our homes, give thanks to ALL OF IT. We need more gratitude and celebrations right now.

Because I also think we need this… a little bit of expansion for you all. Spontaneous remission is a real thing in cancer patients, autoimmune diseases, and fatal injuries + more. There is scientific proof that the body can heal from almost anything with the right mindset and following protocol. So right now we too can heal as a community. Imagine if we all put our focus on healing our planet, healing those infected, willing the virus away…. I know it’s fucking out there to think to some of you…. BUT also how out there was it to think what was happening right now would be what it is? Look how quick the fear and panic spread because of the focus on it… So try it out… heal the energy around this virus and honestly who knows what could happen. Miracles happen every damn day and now is as good as ever to believe in one.

I strongly felt called to share this. I just know in my heart and soul this will all make sense soon and it’ll resolve. Beauty will come from the chaos. I choose to live with the belief and mindset of infinite possibilities. I won’t settle for a world that is “doomed to death” or live a life “on hold”. I just don’t believe in that. I will play my part. I will be mindful. I will be informed, but I will not settle for what’s being said about the projections. Every day I will show up vibrating an energy that is bigger than this virus for all of us. I believe we will heal as a collective. & SO IT IS <3